Feelings that Evolve

I am so dumbstruck by what I am capable of feeling after having been in such a long dry spell of emotions.
I had almost given up hope of ever feeling this wonderful silly feeling of affection and caring for anyone significant ever again.
Of course I care for everyone… But this is different.
It is romantic, it is giddy, it is obsessive, it is "FANTASTIC"
And makes me feel so alive… so beautiful, so womanly, so strong and yet so helpless all at the same time.
I was taken completely by surprise…
I enjoyed that drink in the tavern sharing our life stories… good and bad… Revealing the inner selves that I usually let no one else see…And knowing you were letting down your guards too and sharing a part of yourself that You find painful to talk or think about.
And then you kissed me and it all changed.
I am so grateful… this is the kind of feelings we should all be blessed with all the time… I’m not completely crazy to think it is always this heady…
But I think it can be most of the time If you have mature adults that know what the need and what they want and admit it. Adults that are willing to acknowledge that sometimes we are in the wrong places at the right times. And things just Evolve!
I have enjoyed living so much the short time this has been "evolving" I can’t thank you enough for this chance to just Breath in the excitement we have both felt these last few weeks…
I know I can be overwhelming… There have been a few men that just could not handle the level of attention I feel I need and have to give to maintain a relationship. But I think… when it can be handled it can be like a drug…
Satisfying, heady, obsessive, relaxing, loving, but most of all comfortable and fulfilling.
And that my dear, is what I have been looking for…and didn’t think I could ever find again.
I cannot keep from thinking about you… replaying moments of time in my mind. Smiling as I recall one after another. And the pleasant warm feelings they produced in me…Appreciating the kindness and consideration you show for me.. The more I know and learn about you the more I am sure you are my kind of man…And that is why I am so dumbstruck I only saw your surface before you let the barriers down And even though the exterior is plenty nice… I just didn’t see the man behind it till now.. You are a gem… and I just wanted to let you know what I feel.